Okay, do you remember when I said that I see colors and patterns when I close my eyes? In fact, I see those things even when my eyes are open. It’s always been like this as far as I remember, so as I said, I thought it was normal, but I realized that this is seeing auras and energy and my current state!
For example, as I said earlier today in my previous post, I’ve been drawing cards related to healing a lot, saying I’m a healer and my emotions are healing. You know what color healing is? Green! It’s the heart chakra and it’s about giving and receiving love unconditionally! And you know what?! Today, when I closed my eyes, I saw a mix of green and violet colors! WOW!
And then, I’ve been hearing my name constantly everywhere! People outside calling their kids Maria all the time, today I heard my neighbor say Maria as well and now, just a few minutes ago YouTube recommended this to me:
This song got released today (saw it at 919k views, 11 hours ago), in synchronicity with my energetic state! My gosh, I’m so crying over here right now… The universe loves you! It loves you so damn much and the whole point of being alive is to accept yourself and heal and give and receive love! Unconditional love!
And you know what’s the hardest thing to love? Yes, yourself! I’ve been constantly drawing this card as well (click to read the interpretation):
I realized that I tend to have a hard time receiving stuff… I don’t know, I always feel like I just wanna be like a sun, sitting there, shining light on everyone and get nothing in return, just be still and shine… Gosh, I’m crying…
So, I used to hide my real thoughts a lot to not step on other people’s toes, to not make them feel bad, but now I feel that I have to just spit it out, because that’s what my soul really wants. I don’t wanna be thinking about every damn thing I say just to not upset the other person, because not everything is my problem, you know? If you get offended, then you should probably work on yourself, you know?! Because getting offended means that you’re still identified with some mental image of yourself, aka ego.
This quote comes to mind:
“In my defenselessness my safetly lies.” – A Course in Miracles
When you get so vulnerable and drop all of your walls, you become infinitely powerful. Like stuff just flows through you, words don’t matter, because you realize that it’s all just energy being transmitted. If there is no “you” and no ego, then there is no one who could get offended, you know?! Think of yourself as a character in a game interacting with other characters. When you play a game, you play your character, right? And when something happens to that character, you don’t take it personally, right? Because you think oh well, that’s not me, that’s just a character I play. WELL, GUESS WHAT! What you call “real life” is exactly the same fucking thing! THE SAME! It’s just a game! And you’re being played by consciousness! Man, this is so fucking amazing!
OH MY GOSH! I just got recommended this as well:
“Violet light night”… Also got released today! And look at the logo! Violet and green! Just as my aura today! Holy fucking shit! And then those lines:
술은 입에도 안 댔는데 I’m tipsy
I didn’t even touch alcohol, but I’m tipsy
나 조금 어지러운 것 같애
I think I’m dizzy now
지금 아님 언제
If not now, then when?
날 감싸 안고 입 맞출래
Do you want to hug and kiss me?
And as I’m watching it, it’s at 696,787 views… 6 and 9 are self-explanatory, but holy shit, 787 here…
“Angel Number 787 is a sign that you have learned how to successfully interpret Divine guidance and have incorporated it into your daily life and lifestyle choices. Your angels encourage you to keep up the good work you have been doing and trust that you will have all that you need to sustain and maintain you along your soul’s journey.
Angel Number 787 is a message of acknowledgement for your hard work and efforts, and the angels applaud your life choices. Continue on your path as your grow with spiritual development and find success in the material/physical world.
Angel Number 787 may be indicating that you may be feeling as though a part of your life is coming to an end, such as a relationship or job. Angel Number 787 is validation that your feelings are correct, so prepare yourself for the changes to come.
Angel Number 787 heralds positive news about forthcoming positive changes involving the completion or ending of an intense situation. Things will begin to flow more easily in your life from now on. This may be on a monetary and financial level.”
THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I’VE BEEN FEELING TODAY! Sorry, but this is all so fucking unbelievable, even if stuff like this happens every day these days… Because I was doing stuff related to my old job I recently quit and even there I got this:
44, 77, 33, 6, 9… Un-fucking-believable 😂
So, I just looked at 1theK’s channel and they uploaded one more video today!
So much violet today! Are you kidding me, consciousness?! 😂 Carrying around a violet book/journal! Is that a sign for me to keep journaling all my experiences here?! I think so! 😂 And then the lyrics also so fucking on point!
누가 누구 따라하는 그런 것도 no oh
Stuff like imitating someone no oh
내 타입은 아냐 별로 흥미없어
That’s not my type, it’s not very interesting
Tag me, tag me, 지금 나를 불러
Tag me, tag me, call me now
I’ll go everywhere
어쩌겠니 나도 날 못 말려
What you gonna do? I can’t stop myself either
하고 싶은 말이야 난 지금 꼭 하는 거야
The things I wanna say, I will say now for sure
빠짐없이 하고 싶은 것
Doing what I want to do without exception
나는 나라고 나는 누가 아니고
I’m me, not someone
That cute kinda concept is not really my taste, but who knows?! I’m just being reconstructed from the inside out, so maybe tomorrow I’ll wake up and love it XD
To me, all the stuff I write down here seems pretty obvious and logical, but maybe not to someone who hasn’t experienced something like this, so maybe to some of you it’ll look messy, incoherent and confusing. If that’s the case, drop me line! Unfortunately, I cannot type as fast as I’m experiencing all this shit!
Man, my perception is so intense right now… Colors all looking hella bright and intense…
Also, got recommended this:
So a bunch of deep violet feminine energy today! YES, I’m gonna spit it out!